January 22, 2008
DIE AWAY.
Today I logged into friendster & changed my shout-out to 'Please just, DIE AWAY .'
Sometimes I wish I can die on a yearly basis, then live through the other remaining days. It's not that I'm being dishonest, nor am I being entirely truthful, but the point is, I'm not a person of commitment. & I have to say that I have no sense of responsibility, and no sense of consideration, until the last moment when everything is about to fall apart then will I regret and try to patch things up.
I don't know why these sudden thoughts are coming to me, but I just wonder if there's eternity. How I wish I could be like back then, when I could be carefree about the things I speak, but now I'm just careful. I want to tell you everything, anything that's on my mind and treat you like a true friend. But I just can't, & I don't understand why I feel so burdened about this either.
Maybe I'm just disappointed in myself, or maybe I'm frustrated with you. But either way, I love you, truly, truly as a friend. Because you're one of the greatest and longest friends I've ever had.
Holly Daquel ♥
12:46 AM
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